Thoughts of A Manically Depressed Robot... In love

Together

sabrinall — Mon, 11 Oct 2010 06:07:06 +0000

I will stand beside you,
Not behind you.
And take any blows that seek to find you,
Any bullet marked behind you.

A fight with you is a fight with me
And I! am psycho,
lacking the boundaries that confine those,
That tells them to relax! it is NOT that serious.
The slightest threat to you is to me, and I am delirious!

Snap your fingers, and I’ll be in tow.
From ur women, to ur soldier, ready to go.
Yeah, your friends may say, “I got your back”
But I’m standing next to you.
fuck that!

Just give me the word, and I’m ready to go.
No questions asked, I know what I need to know.
You say it’s a problem, I say where at?
WE go to battle and let that be that.

Perfection…

sabrinall — Tue, 14 Sep 2010 12:52:42 +0000

We look like, angel wings in fresh flight,
Cool water on a sticky New York night.
Like soul for poetry,
Everything we do is pure originality.

There can be only one you and me,
But if our future doesn’t see us to be,
My next love has to be like you, exactly.

I truly adore your passion for the arts,
Your love of music,
And your patient heart.

You are something so simply complicated to me,
But something I figured out so easily.
You are the color blue; cool as a penguin,
I wish I could go back and meet you all over again.

I try to break down the elements of this simple thing we share,
But how can you define something so passionate and so rare?
You literally, take my breath away
And put a smile of my face every single day.

I try to find reason to count you as one of my fears,
But then you come around make me cry joyous tears,
A feeling I’ve wanted to feel for countless years.

You are truly a beautiful surprise,
A shining star in the darkest skies.
A rock even though you didn’t plan to be,
You are so much more than you could imagine to me.

Leave Well Enough Alone

sabrinall — Tue, 22 Jun 2010 06:14:53 +0000

Let’s not get carried away with all these little games you play.
Pretending to be in love with me with the emotionless things you say.
I am sick of your wishy washy, unreliable bullshit
And if I were a little smarter, I would walk away from it.

Just as sure as my make up stains your pillow case,
I stick around, predicable, playing mouse in this chase,
Playing house in this case,
But I’m still in this alone at the end of this play.

Sometime I want to see you just to ignore you.
Getting angry inside because I used to support you.
Defended you when my friends dogged you
Even though deep on the surface I knew it was true.

You’re my foux biggest fan,
best friend
and my man?
Or so you say to be but who’s really looking stupid?
I know!!
ME!!

So take two steps back and let me have my space
Cause as soon as she pops up again, you will forget my face,
And all of these heartfelt moments will need to be replaced
And I will be the one left with the ability to hate.

Je t’aime

sabrinall — Fri, 04 Jun 2010 06:56:05 +0000

So many times I wonder about you, and
What you’re thinking when you stare at me.

I broke down slowly,
And loved you soft and hard.
I was strong and weak for you.
…I stood and fell for you.

Just some of the time…
I want you.
I want to hold you.
Kiss you and stroke your face because you are beautiful.

Just sit with you in silence because being in your presence is better than missing you.

I just wish you knew all of these things I felt.
I wish you knew how much it hurts me when I smell you in my dreams but can’t touch you.
The pain I get when the butterflies in my stomach go so crazy for you it hurts.
And how I long for you to see me.

Just… see… ME…

There’s no better way to say I love you.
Well, perhaps… Je t’aime…
Te quiero?
Ti amo?

There’s no language good enough for you.
Not enough words on the planet to tell you how I really feel.
Not enough breath in my body to compose myself when you walk by.
You’ve made me the happiest women all the planet.

Just love me.

Our Souls Know…

sabrinall — Sun, 23 May 2010 04:29:42 +0000

Arching my back so that when you pull me in for a kiss, your hands rest comfortably,
Our lips touch and my world spins a million times over
and
I can’t get control of me.
I think I may like you, just a lil bit.
This world is full of crazy and through you, I escape it.

You send typhoons of feelings through my bones.
And somehow, someway, I feel I met you long ago.
When you wrap your arms around me, it feels like something I’ve dreamed of in my past life.
It feels so taboo; So wrong and So right.

I walk around singing little tunes all day,
Making up songs that don’t rhyme or make sense, but that’s ok.
I know that when I see you, everything will come together,
We will fit perfectly like words to the letter.

You got me…
Like no one has had me…
Like doing dumb shit gladly…
Like drawing stick figures and naming them “we”

And I… Just want to make you happy

Soo,
Kiss me all you like
Because you kiss me just right.
and I can’t wait until the day where you can kiss me all night.

Dear Crush…

sabrinall — Tue, 11 May 2010 22:05:00 +0000

Thinking things I can’t explain and rendering myself incapable…
of sorting out the way I feel because of fear, and I run from you.
I don’t like the way I want to write you in a poem,
And how,
If I’m not around you, I just want to be alone.

And…

I don’t like how you posses all the qualities that mean so much to me
And I dig and dig only to find more radiance under your beauty.
The colors of your words swim in the pit of my belly mimicking butterflies
And amongst many other things, I see those very same colors in your eyes.

You consume me like poetry,
And I can pretend I don’t like the thought of you and me
But I look forward to thinking of us
And how you make me smile; your facial expressions are enough.

See…

I want to do childish things with you,
Like, nudge you and then kiss you.
Like, smile foolishly at you because I missed you.
Like, play with your fingers against my skin, but maybe, I’m too ticklish to…

But, I want to play in your hair and sing about how weak I get when you smile.
And talk about how I like when you’re around, so just stay a while.
I appreciate the technique in which you handle me; it’s quite alright.
No need to rush, we can just be each others type.

I realize I’ve worked hard at this crush thing and I deserve you.
I could be anything you ever asked for so you deserve me too.
I just want you to understand that I’m hard to deal with
And I’m only protecting my heart because without this armor, I know you’ll steal it.

You blow my mind

sabrinall — Tue, 09 Mar 2010 00:40:54 +0000

Sitting in nowhere hardly believing you secretly like me how I love you.
Or, the way I publicly pretend not to notice you.

These are things that fill my days and in so many ways you keep me busily pondering “where have you been all my life?”

Cutting my eyes in your direction
and
blushing when I catch you doing the same.
We, play tit for tat with ‘catcher of your eye’ games

Every time I see you, I sigh.
Every time I see you , I wonder, will she admit she loves me today? And; Is this when I get to steal her breath away? And; if so will she make me give it back? Cause I don’t want to. I just wanna keep you here, and love you wholly, accept your flaws, cause you were put here for me. I’d kiss you amoursly and tell you how happy I am you decided to stay with me.

I’m sitting here, in the middle of nowhere
and then
I see you in nowhere too.
We
Join hands and silently
We
Tell each other how much we were both missed.
And how much I longed for that tit for tat, catcher of your eye
And you kiss me amoursly and tell me you’ll accept my flaws and love me wholly.
I whisper almost inaudibly and tell you “you were put here for me”

When Words Run Dry, There’s Feelings

sabrinall — Wed, 13 Jan 2010 05:39:11 +0000

Words fell in still places and gathered the wherewithal to stay.
Words that, like water often does, ran dry.

Complications of us
(you’ll always be mine)
Between her words, it’s sublime.
(I’m here, forever)
And I shut my eyes.
Her words breathe life through the wind and kiss me on my cheek.

Like love made, we lay with each other.
Like kisses on eyelids, we feel adored.
Sweetly becoming the woman the other can only dream up.

You know…

sabrinall — Tue, 29 Dec 2009 00:46:58 +0000

I hate the fact that I can’t be phony.
That, I can’t pretend to like you when I don’t
and
The harder I try to think about what we had and who you were,
it doesn’t change that I don’t like who you’ve become.

It’s almost like nails on the chalk board when I think about you;
My eyes snap shut, I bite the inside of my lips to calm the nerve in my teeth and I quickly think of something else.
Something newer.

Bad as it seems, I miss you.
I miss your lies.
I miss being pushed to the side.
Most of all,
I miss the negative attention that I got from you.

I miss that heartless heart you hold captive in your chest cavity.
Karma.
Karma.
Karma.
Remember that name dear.
Lies only chase their tales and night runs until day catches up.

You and all of your false pretenses are missed.

I’ve Learned

sabrinall — Mon, 21 Dec 2009 02:44:32 +0000

I saw a rainbow…
It stood so… suspended between clouds and radiant against the light blue sea above.
I inhale deeply and smile.
I’ve come to love her like my next breath.
I’ve come to hold onto her sleeve in my sleep so that she won’t leave my side.
“Where are you going?” I ask waking up from a deep sleep, holding tight to her.
“To the bathroom.” She responds, and I let go. And I wait. With my eyes closed. To pretend I’m sleeping but I’m only waiting for her to lay back next to me.
She returns.
I push my butt against her stomach; we lay like spoons in the silverware drawer.
I am sleeping. Dreaming. Smelling and feeling her.
I saw a rainbow.
It stood so… suspended between clouds and radiant against the light blue sea above.
I inhale deeply and smile because I’ve come to love her like my next breath.